midge 08:00 AM 03.02.02
yesterday after my orientation i went to wal-mart and bought scrubs. we're not allowed to wear jeans or t-shirts and the personnel woman suggested nurse's gear for comfort and cheapness, which is what i'm all about. i figure if i hate it and quit, i got myself a bitchin' lounging outfit. so i just finished my first shift as a senior care giver. it was bizarre. i didn't have any problem staying awake for the 11 hours, i had a migraine, and i read, more than i thought i would. i finished breakfast of champions by kurt vonnegaught jr. by 1am, and with 6 hours left to go i poked around the stacks of books the client had on her coffee tables and read a cheesy erma bombeck book about how rotten teenagers are, and an old good housekeeping magazine three times over. for the last 45 minutes i just sat in a daze listening to the monotonous ticking sounds of the second hands on my watch and a wall clock, duking it out while i counted ticks, lost count then started again. the lady seemed nice, and by nice i mean not awful. she slept most of the time, woke up twice. it was awkward and scary helping her walk, she has a fracture in some discs in her back, and she's such a tiny frail little thing... everything hurt her, and i felt like an idiot because i couldn't do anything about it. it was nerve wracking, humbling and frightening all at the same time, but not bad. very slow, easy and quiet for 10 out of the 11 hours. mind you i think it has a potential to be shitty, the girl who finished her shift when i came on told me a story about a woman she worked for once who put 8 dead bolt locks on her door and wouldn't let her leave while carrying on about various insane paranoid fantasies. she had also attacked another caregiver and threatened to stab another one. i made a mental note of where she lived, so if they try and send me there i'll remember. on my way home i stopped at the grocery store to hit the bank machine and do a quick deposit to cover a credit card payment, and grabbed a sack of seneca apple chips, caramel flavored. they were one of the best things i've had the pleasure of eating in a long time. i have to work again tonight then i am off until next friday, that is if my client stays where she is. that's not a sure thing right now. i'm looking forward to sleep.
midge 03:43 AM 03.01.02
so i'm no longer unemployed. i got a call today offering me a job, the assignment i wanted and everything. i have to go in tomorrow at 10:30 in the morning for orientation, then work that night at 8. i've got a new auction up, with the new design template i made for my auctions. a similarly looking site is in the works for the actual business page i'm making. i'm feeling a lot better now, i think whatever i had ran it's course. things may be looking up.
midge 04:57 PM 02.28.02
i haven't been called in to work but i've been feeling really sick so it's probably for the better for now anyways. my auctions have been doing really well and i now have a custom order to tend to as well. last night we watched jay & silent bob strike back. it was funny because the mpaa (motion picture association of america) had cut out a bunch of scenes i remembered from watching it in the theatre in canada. the whole thing is ridiculous and vulgar, removing a few scenes hardly made it decent family programming. americans are so repressed... they make a big deal about things like this, and like south park's ground breaking use of the word shit on comedy central, while the cbc (canadian government sponsored channel) has the kids in the hall saying jesus fucking christ at 11pm and nobody minds. hosers rock.
midge 04:17 PM 02.27.02
so i'm not exactly in the clear with this job, they still haven't gotten a hold of two of my references and they're already irritating me. the job is working as a non medical care giver for the elderly, basic stuff like: light house cleaning, cooking food, running errands, picking up their medicine and buying the groceries. no diaper changes, no sponge baths. some assignments are easier then others, depending on how messed up the clients are, and the time of day. i was enticed with a cushy overnight assignment, two nights a week for 11 hours each night, sitting up while a client sleeps, helping her walk to the bathroom and bringing a drink of water or whatever she might need. it sounded super, you're allowed to read, knit, do crossword puzzles, anything but sleep. then they call me this morning and want to give me some 9-5 job, 5 days a week, 45 minutes drive away, i felt pressured and said i'd try it, then realized husband needs to be able to go to the post office daily for ebay auctions. we've amassed 600$ or so, so far in ebay auctions so it's pretty important to keep it going. i called her back and declined, said it wouldn't work out, asked if it would be a problem and she said no. so i'm off the hook for now, i have no idea where i'll be going or what hours i'll be working, but i hope my two nights a week still happens. i was so excited when i heard about it. how deliciously pud and perfect for me it would be.
midge 09:28 PM 02.26.02
i had a job interview today, it went really well. i was basicly told what I would be doing and when, and told to expect a call from them as soon as they can verify my references. they want me to start friday. i'm excited.
midge 08:18 PM 02.25.02
the job interview at the hotel was a bust. it lasted maybe two minutes and the lady didn't ask me half the questions she asked the girl before me. she looked disinterested and bored, then she pointed out that they now had to interview all applicants by law, and that she appreciated me taking the time to come in. yeah, great. the car is fine, husband got home okay and the mechanics thought we were on dope. they said the brakes, shocks, everything was fine. we got an oil changed and our mandatory safety inspection and went on our way. i'm applying for another job, with many many lies. i have an interview tomorrow and i hope it goes well. i worry and get sad, and that doesn't help, but it feels awful, scrambling around like this, grovelling for a little morcel of work. i'm trying so hard, and i guess that's my consolation right now, because what more can i do?
midge 01:49 AM 02.24.02
my roots are all skanky and grown out so i sweet talked husband into going to the store to buy me some hair color so i can look presentable for my interview monday, plus a few grubby food items couldn't hurt. he's been worried about the car making jokes about how he might not make it back. it seems like it's been a long time since he left...
