midge 04:39 PM 05.15.02
my (ex)work screwed me. they called today to let me know they weren't going to pay me before we leave (as they'd already agreed to when i gave my notice), so i quit. there's no sense scrambling around trying to balance working full time and getting ready to move (which is a monumentous task let me assure you) when i won't get paid until AFTER i need the money. i might as well save my energy and concerntrate on helping husband with ebay junk, yard sales and stuff like that. it pisses me off that they went back on their promise, and that they were so non chalant about it. oh well, fuck those pricks. i'm on vacation!
midge 07:34 PM 05.14.02
does anybody read archives? i'm thinking of deleting my old blogger archives (04.08.01-02.09.02) because they're kind of fucked up (broken images and the like) and it would liberate some space... any opinions? anybody care? i'm not sure if i even do. husband has been nursing me all day. he went and bought me a big heating pad for my back, which was a great investment anyways because those things are perfect for cramps aches and pains, things that are in no short supply around here. it's been helping a lot. i popped some celebrex i had left over from my ulnar nerve irritation injury last year and hopefully (even though i only have 5) it'll help a bit. i'm pretty sure it's a muscle strain of some sort, probably brought on by my recent bouts of excercise (stationary bicycle riding and budget pilates), and it ought to pass soon. anyways you couldn't ask for a better or more concerned friend... he even made me dinner again. people often complain about marriages and what not, belly ache about how insensitive and jerky their mates are, fuck around and feel cheated, but if you ask me... they're just marrying the wrong people for the wrong reasons. my little slice of bliss allows me these perspectives i suppose, and one could easily say things change smarty pants but then 4 years and still smiling isn't half bad! things have been strange for me lately, issues are being resolved in a very healthy, anti-climactic way, and i feel like i'm changing a lot, but staying very much the same. maybe it's not me that's changing, just some of the bad stuff i clung to that wasn't me, things i didn't need in the first place. i'm not just talking about the weight loss (health gain) but big stuff, personal in nature, and anyways... i could never give the kind of background that would be needed to understand, so why bother. i worry about stuff (moving, child, $$, life?) but in a more serene way, the big demons are fading away, crawling like spiders to find shade to hide in. shit... i think i'm having breakthroughs. this is my friday, because i have wednesday and thursdays off, and i'm out of yogurt and grapes so we're heading for the store soon. husband is playing tetris on our old school NES, you can't beat the classics, or so he tells me. i never know what he's talking about because i didn't get a nintendo until i was 18 years old. he-man, dungeons and dragons, M.U.S.C.L.E.S... it's all news to me and he's horrified. for anyone interested, my inner child wants this for my birthday. i had one when i was small and i loved it so much. i left it at my grandmother's one summer and she threw it away along with all the other junk (read: memories) i played with as a child. this wouldn't be half bad either. i wonder i they still smell? it wouldn't be the same if they didn't...
midge 07:15 AM 05.14.02
my back is killing me. i can't tell for sure if its meat, bones or kidneys but whatever it is, it's torture. all that's left to do now is lay in bed and wish we had an electric heating pad.
midge 08:17 PM 05.13.02
yesterday was fun. husband made salmon with squash and baked potatoes for me. work was boring as usual, i mostly read and slept. we went and did some stuff we needed to get done today, including getting a new bank account for our international money laundering (paypal). a free pyrex casserole dish in warming canvas carrying baggie came with our new account as well as a chance to choose a fake key from a dish and try to open the lock on a box with a prize in it. it was all so hokey i was almost embarassed for the teller having to go through it all. i took a picture of my mother's day balloon and flowers so everyone can marvel at the wonderfulness of a husband whipped by badluckpussy.
midge 05:47 PM 05.12.02
it's my day! 35 hours of unmedicated induced labor entitled me to be pampered and spoiled rotten once a year. husband surprised me this morning with a big mylar flowepot balloon and some flowers, a lovely card and a david bowie cd. i was glad, i asked him not to buy me anything but he managed to stay reasonable and not go crazy (the ultimate badtz maru kit comes to mind). we went to the grocery and bought some prepackaged sushi for my lunch at work tonight, and some salmon steaks for the dinner he's cooking for me.
