midge 05:43 PM 09.20.03
i'm not pleased with friday night television. it's the most boring void of thoughtless vomit in the universe. there's a semi-local sex offender on the lam after molesting 3 girls and the local news is all over it. the ghouls found their shock value for the week and it seems there's no point informing the public of much else. there's a pregnant 13 year old that ran away from home and is presumed living on the streets. her mother is looking for her... where can you hide in this city? crappity crap, i hate the state of the world right now. ugly is everywhere, tragedy looms, and my own struggles, despite their intense suckiness, pale in comparison to the woes of the world, and that's just sad. somebody get me a pint of oreo ice cream and a dime bag, i'm feelin' kinda blah. i did something positive, probably just to absolve my own guilt more than anything else, but hey, what are motivations worth nowadays anyways? few gestures are truly selfless. anyways i adopted a child in niger through the foster parent plan of canada (they're non sectarian). he has no running water, potty or electricity in his house, and he can't go to school because there is only one with two rooms and it's packed full of kids. he's a moslem, 11 years old and has the sweetest little face. i really hope his quality of life is improved with my 30$ per month. that makes me feel more okay about being born on the right continent and having a life of luxury and priviledge. at least i am aware, and i am trying. got something to say?
midge 01:04 AM 09.20.03
i'm doing some graphics for the psychic outfit i work for. their layout is on the giant yellow text, cretinous pixelated poopy graphics side of things, and i offered to help turn it around. at a price of course. who knows what they'll want to pay me for it... but anything will do. i suppose i could be a hardass and get demanding, but the work is already done, so there's not much point. big brother 4 is stupid. that weasley little bug eyed freak with stupid hair is nauseating. husband says reality tv will really thin out the pool of sitcoms in syndication in the next few years, and he's right... how can it be that becker is on 5 nights a week? did they even have more than one season of that piece of crap? i think ted danson has a simian brow and i never bought him as the dashing ladies man. he always looked grody and that was so obviously a rug. also, brown corduroys?!?! are you 4 years old sam malone?!?! work was hectic this week. what a zoo. i find it harder and harder to haul my carcass out of bed every morning and actually go. it's a good thing i have to pick up my partner in crime because otherwise i'd lay out a lot more. she's having an issue with a guy at her bus stop stalking her and we thought we had it resolved by her waiting for me somewhere else to pic her up, but for some reason this loser sees fit to walk over to her and talk to her as though his company was welcome. once when we were walking from the parking lot he ran up to us and promptly inserted himself into our conversation, asking her jokingly if she thinks she's too good for the bus. i igored him and kept talking but it didn't seem to deter him. he scares me. his name is raymond but i will call him freaky stalker. 2 lucky devils
midge 09:18 PM 09.17.03
i've been missing a lot of work lately. between illness, lack of motivation and family related obligations like appointments and the like. good news is the family teeth are all fixed apart from two cavities in husband's mouth that were the least of our worries and will be fixed next month. there is no real bad news other than the stability of my job is questionable. i work for the federal government, so my job is cushy and well paid, but not a sure thing. there's a process of exams and competitions and term contract renewals i have to contend with. luckily for me the big cheese is a sweet heart and i am well liked, so it's far from hopeless. i'm glad, poverty makes me tired. what is with all the toys of my generation coming back nowadays? strawberry shortcake, care bears and my little pony are everywhere. the new strawberry shortcakes are kind of stupid. they should have replicated the originals rather than sass them up with flared trousers and trendy outfits. i'm all about the care bears and my little pony though, they came back pretty cute and true enough to the originals. got something to say?
midge 08:56 PM 09.17.03
i'm working on a website about lampwork bead making. i do that now. it's incredibly fun. i'm disliking how cold it feels in my house, but i can't bring myself to turn the heat on because the first time you do that for the season is always the stinkiest. i'm trying to eat well again because i am so fat it's wrecking my bones and fucking me up. at some point it's not vanity. this is the point. i should start doing yoga again too but i am too lazy. there aren't enough hours in a day, and i need to sleep... a lot. got something to say?
midge 10:46 PM 09.16.03
i watched the vagina monologues months ago. you know there's a thing about female sexuality and empowerment, it's rarely accepted publicly unless accompanied by a powerful account of gruesome violence and victimization of women. if you ask me, it's a crock of shit. women can only get excited about pussies if they justify it with repression and sexism. i don't think about that all the time, it just needed to be said. such sporadic writing... can you believe? i am no where for years, and all of a sudden i am pissed off about the vagina monologues. who knew that lady was dilly mckermitt's adoptive mother? the dream boat practice guy must be so embarassed. cccccccccccuuuuuuuuuuunnnnnnnnnnnttttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! anyways, on another note... hi. got something to say?
